What About My Future Next Boyfriend?

He's not like the boy's next door. But he said he was a dancer.

How did we started?

It was our second day of CCT with gorgeous Dhanbeth as our Trainer when I first met him. He introduces himself and I haven't got his name but I am very sure he said he's studying at FEU and my friend Jhen happens to study at the same school that was being told.

We have a group activity that day and he happens to be one of my groupmate. I transformed myself to being coyly little girl who faves to wear floral dress. But I tried to be as friendly as I can. That time, I was preoccupied with the topic of the game and what interest me most was the spelling bee time. I was trying to make friends with Kuya Paulo and Kuya Benj HAHA but I can't keep the conversation with them. Since Meridith was the only girl I can talk to comfortably, I talk to her, just her. 

Until one time, he talked to me. I really felt he wanted to be friends with anyone not just me. I considered himself as an approachable-cute-guy-who-studies-same-school-with-my-friend.

This time was the admiration-that-impressed-me-the-first-time-evah! There was this activity with Ritz as our second Trainer for NTP which was the "how fast you can sign in to Xbox?" I really worked hard to search on the steps in VKB, xbox website even in forums and I just thought I found it but I trusted Kuya Pao that he can do it even though we're not sure about the steps. Expectedly, we failed. But this guy really impressed me. I don't know how. Maybe because competitions are big deal to me.

After that was the Central day with wave 27 celebrating our first pay-out/Drexel's birthday. 

At the latter part of the drinking session with them, I felt drowsy. I don't really feel good. So I decided to just sit all time that time. And then he sat beside me. He asked me if I was okay, I answered him Yes Im okay when Im not. Then he opened the topic about me and my boyfriend. He's advising me of things and things and yada yada. Up until we got to the bus. How cute when he's telling me things, same things over and over again and I assume this guy has something on me. That's just what I thought.

The next day, I teased him being so wasted that night. I noticed his friend grimace as I teased him and gave me a very very confusing grimace ever.

Chat cert day one. He asked me to add him at Skype so we can practice Chat cert. I knew that it's one of his strategies and yes I'm right. I was just laughing with the whole chat that we had. I think that my confusions are being answered but not yet.

This time was the Gilligan's drinking session with them. I was sick that time but I refuse to go home early. Instead, I went with them to drink. I was some kind of bored, I haven't finished drinking my first bottle. Still that day went good when he bought me dozen of doughnuts from Cello's which he faves the most.

It all started with the doughnuts.

The next day that we've been together was when we had this drinking slash killing session bonding with friends at Poleng's house. This was also my BrokenHeartedDepressedStageIJustWantToDrinkItAway night. All of a sudden he gave me 3 pieces of chocolates which I knew the idea was. As I have cried it all when my plan was to keep it, I knew he was helping me out to feel at least any good and I like the fact that he was the first person who hugged me to make me feel I am never alone means a lot to me. It's prolly 10pm when we decided to go home. And it was the night of our first holding hands while walking HAHAHA

As time goes by, I think he thought of it as taking it seriously (as far as I know) He often fetches me home nowadays. But there's still things that keeps us bothering and problems will always be there running towards us. Nevertheless, he didn't gave up on me.

The truth is, behind all the things that happened to me just these days has passed, I'm quite sure that I am starting to fall in love with this guy. I know its very wrong to be in love this early to someone else after being broken to my almost 4 year ex boyfriend but this feeling is real I choose to  stay with as long as my life does.

It was a suicidal to take on risks to open my heart to someone I never knew. 

It was just too perfect, I don't want to lose.

In time, everything will be alright. Everything will be okay.