Full-force April's pressure

My blood dripped down from my head and suddenly my heart plummeted inside my cage and my breath came out ragged like an exhausted bitch that afternoon with mom. Talking about my future second job, I'm still confused that my heart would like to justify my profession as a nurse but my mind consistently tells me that I need to earn more and fast for my NCLEX thingy preparation to my awesome future. This were my mom's plans for me and my plans as well, taking MAN and MD added to that. I have PLAN B also. And I invoke my right to remain silent about it for the moment. I am getting 22 this year and none of my 4 months stay as a trainee in my first and past company I've been invested for my family's future and my future also. And I'll start everything in the month of April that on the other hand made me feel the enormous amount of pressure bound to me. I am not alone. I can do it with God. Still grateful for great blessings and opportunities coming.